Sometimes I know what I want to do. And sometimes I don’t. And that’s okay, but I feel like it’s less “I don’t want to do this, I want to do that,” it’s, I want to do it all. I want to do advertising and digital communications and write for television and produce television and be an overachiever.
I know that isn’t good, nor is it very healthy, and I know I have plenty of time to figure everything out, but I want it all right now. Maybe that’s why I forced/willing decided/coerced myself into graduating a semester early – so I can hit the ground running as soon as possible wherever I end up.
I simply cannot help myself. When I watch television, I want to be in the writers room. When I see great advertising, I want to be part of the team that makes it. When I see conferences or conventions I want to be there, attending them in person, not online. Maybe it all comes down to my FOMO – fear of missing out – that plagues my generation and our constant connectedness. That, and my inability to concentrate on any one task for very long.
But – hopefully that will all change in 2014! I’ve got some very exciting projects coming up – that I could start now, but I’ve got to pace myself (and I’m in the midst of final papers, presentations and exams, it’s not pretty) – and I’m simply jittery with energy, there are so many possibilities ahead!