Doubts and Distractions

Sometimes, I get scared. Like, what-am-I-going-to-do-for-the-rest-of-my-life scared. I know what general area I want to be in: communications. I know I’m not going to wake up tomorrow, or a year from now, and want to be in engineering or biology.

Still, I have my moments of self-doubt, when I falter and trip over the stream of thoughts and worries. Sure, I would go to very great lengths to work for a company such as NBC, Donna Karan or BuzzFeed, but what if they don’t want me? 

But I’m passionate about this, and that’s what reinvigorates me and reminds me what I’m working for. My heart feels like it’s about to burst whenever I think about working in Fashion PR, advertising, or anything in television. I can’t lose focus. I have to work harder. I’m working now – running this blog, I’m proving to myself (and potential employers – hopefully) that I can do it. But I feel like I have to do more – to sing from the rooftops “I would love to work for you! I can do a better job than the other applicants!”

I have to keep my eyes on the prize. I am determined. I will make this happen. What “this” is though, is yet to be completely defined.


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